Aug 3, 2005
Have You Ever...
| Just been so perfectly content with the night that you spent in good company? Having innocent fun and frivolity just ruined by horrible news and depressing thoughts? Tonight and into the morning has been one of the biggest emotional build ups and drops ever. Finding out that you might have finally figured out what love is, found it, and might not get to entertain the curiosity that ensues. Find trouble and nothing but problems from people I've never met, people I've only known a brief amount of time, people... that for some reason I can't help but care about. The people that make my day better for no reason, I try and do the same for others. I try, but I don't succeed all the time, and I feel as if I've failed miserably, and I feel that I can't just sit here as things unravell and people change. Everything is moving in super slow motion and I still can't catch up. I don't know why I feel this way, but I know what love is, I know what it takes to make it work, I know what emotion and time must go into it, I know that the person I love is leaving soon, and I don't know why I'm the way I am. Act the way I act. Do what I do. But this is who I am, I will not make much money in my lifetime, that is something I can see clear as day, there won't be much glamour or fun. But I can't help but want to make a difference. The worst feeling in the world is watching everything happen right in front of you, not being able to stop it, and then being a part of the clean up crew. How am I supposed to sleep at a time like this? |
posted by Mike at 7:40 AM
