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Feb 27, 2005

We All Gotta Have Goals...

This is the only thing I need to accomplish today... LOOK AT THOSE BOXERS STICKING OUT!
Feb 26, 2005

Peter Benenson Dies At 83

Peter Benenson, the founder of Amnesty International, died in Oxford Friday at the age of 83. From Amnesty news…

“Mr Benenson founded and inspired Amnesty International in 1961 first as a one-year campaign for the release of six prisoners of conscience. But from there came a worldwide movement for human rights and in its midst an international organisation -- Amnesty International -- which has taken up the cases of many thousands of victims of human rights violations and inspired millions to human rights defence the world round.

"Peter Benenson’s life was a courageous testament to his visionary commitment to fight injustice around the world," said Irene Khan, Secretary General of Amnesty International.

"He brought light into the darkness of prisons, the horror of torture chambers and tragedy of death camps around the world. This was a man whose conscience shone in a cruel and terrifying world, who believed in the power of ordinary people to bring about extraordinary change and, by creating Amnesty International, he gave each of us the opportunity to make a difference."

"In 1961 his vision gave birth to human rights activism. In 2005 his legacy is a world wide movement for human rights which will never die."

The one-year Appeal for Amnesty was launched on 28 May 1961, in an article in the British newspaper, The Observer, called "The Forgotten Prisoners". That appeal attracted thousands of supporters, and started a worldwide human rights movement.

The catalyst for the original campaign was Mr Benenson's sense of outrage after reading an article about the arrest and imprisonment of two students in a café in Lisbon, Portugal, who had drunk a toast to liberty.

In the first few years of Amnesty International's existence, Mr Benenson supplied much of the funding for the movement, went on research missions and was involved in all aspects of the organisation's affairs.

Other activities that Mr Benenson was involved in during his lifetime included; adopting orphans from the Spanish Civil War, bringing Jews who had fled Hitler's Germany to Britain, observing trials as a member of the Society of Labour Lawyers, helping to set up the organisation "Justice" and establishing a society for people with coeliac disease.

At a ceremony to mark Amnesty International's 25th anniversary, Mr Benenson lit what has become the organisation's symbol -- a candle entwined in barbed wire -- with the words:

"The candle burns not for us, but for all those whom we failed to rescue from prison, who were shot on the way to prison, who were tortured, who were kidnapped, who ‘disappeared’. That is what the candle is for."

Today Amnesty International is into its 44th year. It has become the world’s largest independent human rights organisation, with more than 1.8 million members and committed supporters worldwide.”

If You Could See Inside My Head

You'd see her running,
Through the webbed thoughts,
The crude humor and sarcasm,
And the battles yet to be fought.

She's better than the drugs
That calm my moods
She's better than the other people
That's what I conclude....

[insert catchy bass line]

Gonna find a way to love her
Even if I can't be with
She'll know how I feel
And that love is NOT just a myth.
Feb 24, 2005

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I'm so uninspired right now... I couldn't think of much to put in here... sooo... until I come up with something... blah/
Feb 21, 2005

The White House Stages Its 'Daily Show'





THE prayers of those hoping that real television
news might take its cues from Jon Stewart were finally answered on Feb. 9, 2005.
A real newsman borrowed a technique from fake news to deliver real news about
fake news in prime time.


Let me explain.


On "Countdown," a nightly news hour on MSNBC, the anchor, Keith Olbermann,
led off with a classic "Daily Show"-style bit: a rapid-fire montage of sharply
edited video bites illustrating the apparent idiocy of those in Washington. In
this case, the eight clips stretched over a year in the White House briefing
room - from February 2004 to late last month - and all featured a reporter named
"Jeff." In most of them, the White House press secretary, Scott McClellan, says
"Go ahead, Jeff," and "Jeff" responds with a softball question intended not to
elicit information but to boost President Bush and smear his political
opponents. In the last clip, "Jeff" is quizzing the president himself, in his
first post-inaugural press conference of Jan. 26. Referring to Harry Reid and
Hillary Clinton, "Jeff" asks, "How are you going to work with people who seem to
have divorced themselves from reality?"


If we did not live in a time when the news culture itself is divorced from
reality, the story might end there: "Jeff," you'd assume, was a lapdog reporter
from a legitimate, if right-wing, news organization like Fox, and you'd get some
predictable yuks from watching a compressed video anthology of his kissing up to
power. But as Mr. Olbermann explained, "Jeff Gannon," the star of the montage,
was a newsman no more real than a "Senior White House Correspondent" like
Stephen Colbert on "The Daily Show" and he worked for a news organization no
more real than The Onion. Yet the video broadcast by Mr. Olbermann was not fake.
"Jeff" was in the real White House, and he did have those exchanges with the
real Mr. McClellan and the real Mr. Bush.


"Jeff Gannon's" real name is James D. Guckert. His employer was a Web site
called Talon News, staffed mostly by volunteer Republican activists. Media
Matters for America, the liberal press monitor that has done the most exhaustive
research into the case, discovered that Talon's "news" often consists of
recycled Republican National Committee and White House press releases, and its
content frequently overlaps with another partisan site, GOPUSA, with which it
shares its owner, a Texas delegate to the 2000 Republican convention.
Nonetheless, for nearly two years the White House press office had credentialed
Mr. Guckert, even though, as Dana Milbank of The Washington Post explained on
Mr. Olbermann's show, he "was representing a phony media company that doesn't
really have any such thing as circulation or readership."


How this happened is a mystery that has yet to be solved. "Jeff" has now quit
Talon News not because he and it have been exposed as fakes but because of other
embarrassing blogosphere revelations linking him to sites like
hotmilitarystud.com and to an apparently promising career as an X-rated
$200-per-hour "escort." If Mr. Guckert, the author of Talon News exclusives like
"Kerry Could Become First Gay President," is yet another link in the boundless
network of homophobic Republican closet cases, that's not without interest. But
it shouldn't distract from the real question - that is, the real news - of how
this fake newsman might be connected to a White House propaganda machine that
grows curiouser by the day. Though Mr. McClellan told Editor & Publisher
magazine that he didn't know until recently that Mr. Guckert was using an alias,
Bruce Bartlett, a White House veteran of the Reagan-Bush I era, wrote on the
nonpartisan journalism Web site Romenesko, that "if Gannon was using an alias,
the White House staff had to be involved in maintaining his cover." (Otherwise,
it would be a rather amazing post-9/11 security breach.)


By my count, "Jeff Gannon" is now at least the sixth "journalist" (four of
whom have been unmasked so far this year) to have been a propagandist on the
payroll of either the Bush administration or a barely arms-length ally like
Talon News while simultaneously appearing in print or broadcast forums that
purport to be real news. Of these six, two have been syndicated newspaper
columnists paid by the Department of Health and Human Services to promote the
administration's "marriage" initiatives. The other four have played real newsmen
on TV. Before Mr. Guckert and Armstrong Williams, the talking head paid $240,000
by the Department of Education, there were Karen Ryan and Alberto Garcia. Let us
not forget these pioneers - the Woodward and Bernstein of fake news. They
starred in bogus reports ("In Washington, I'm Karen Ryan reporting," went the
script) pretending to "sort through the details" of the administration's
Medicare prescription-drug plan in 2004. Such "reports," some of which found
their way into news packages distributed to local stations by CNN, appeared in
more than 50 news broadcasts around the country and have now been deemed illegal
"covert propaganda" by the Government Accountability Office.


The money that paid for both the Ryan-Garcia news packages and the Armstrong
Williams contract was siphoned through the same huge public relations firm,
Ketchum Communications, which itself filtered the funds through subcontractors.
A new report by Congressional Democrats finds that Ketchum has received $97
million of the administration's total $250 million P.R. kitty, of which the
Williams and Ryan-Garcia scams would account for only a fraction. We have yet to
learn precisely where the rest of it ended up.


Even now, we know that the fake news generated by the six known shills is
only a small piece of the administration's overall propaganda effort. President
Bush wasn't entirely joking when he called the notoriously meek March 6, 2003,
White House press conference on the eve of the Iraq invasion "scripted" while it
was still going on. (And "Jeff Gannon" apparently wasn't even at that one).
Everything is scripted.


The pre-fab "Ask President Bush" town hall-style meetings held during last
year's campaign (typical question: "Mr. President, as a child, how can I help
you get votes?") were carefully designed for television so that, as Kenneth R.
Bazinet wrote last summer in New York's Daily News, "unsuspecting viewers"
tuning in their local news might get the false impression they were "watching a
completely open forum." A Pentagon Office of Strategic Influence, intended to
provide propagandistic news items, some of them possibly false, to foreign news
media was shut down in 2002 when it became an embarrassing political liability.
But much more quietly, another Pentagon propaganda arm, the Pentagon Channel,
has recently been added as a free channel for American viewers of the Dish
Network. Can a Social Security Channel be far behind?


It is a brilliant strategy. When the Bush administration isn't using
taxpayers' money to buy its own fake news, it does everything it can to shut out
and pillory real reporters who might tell Americans what is happening in what
is, at least in theory, their own government. Paul Farhi of The Washington Post
discovered that even at an inaugural ball he was assigned "minders" - attractive
women who wouldn't give him their full names - to let the revelers know that Big
Brother was watching should they be tempted to say anything remotely off
message.


The inability of real journalists to penetrate this White House is not all
the White House's fault. The errors of real news organizations have played
perfectly into the administration's insidious efforts to blur the boundaries
between the fake and the real and thereby demolish the whole notion that there
could possibly be an objective and accurate free press. Conservatives, who
supposedly deplore post-modernism, are now welcoming in a brave new world in
which it's a given that there can be no empirical reality in news, only the
reality you want to hear (or they want you to hear). The frequent fecklessness
of the Beltway gang does little to penetrate this Washington smokescreen. For a
case in point, you needed only switch to CNN on the day after Mr. Olbermann did
his fake-news-style story on the fake reporter in the White House press
corps.


"Jeff Gannon" had decided to give an exclusive TV interview to a sober
practitioner of by-the-book real news, Wolf Blitzer. Given this journalistic
opportunity, the anchor asked questions almost as soft as those "Jeff" himself
had asked in the White House. Mr. Blitzer didn't question Mr. Guckert's
outrageous assertion that he adopted a fake name because "Jeff Gannon is easier
to pronounce and easier to remember." (Is "Jeff" easier to pronounce than his
real first name, Jim?). Mr. Blitzer never questioned Gannon/Guckert's assertion
that Talon News "is a separate, independent news division" of GOPUSA. Only in a
brief follow-up interview a day later did he ask Gannon/Guckert to explain why
he was questioned by the F.B.I. in the case that may send legitimate reporters
to jail: Mr. Guckert has at times implied that he either saw or possessed a
classified memo identifying Valerie Plame as a C.I.A. operative. Might that memo
have come from the same officials who looked after "Jeff Gannon's" press
credentials? Did Mr. Guckert have any connection with CNN's own Robert Novak,
whose publication of Ms. Plame's name started this investigation in the first
place? The anchor didn't go there.


The "real" news from CNN was no news at all, but it's not as if any of its
competitors did much better. The "Jeff Gannon" story got less attention than
another media frenzy - that set off by the veteran news executive Eason Jordan,
who resigned from CNN after speaking recklessly at a panel discussion at Davos,
where he apparently implied, at least in passing, that American troops
deliberately targeted reporters. Is the banishment of a real newsman for
behaving foolishly at a bloviation conference in Switzerland a more pressing
story than that of a fake newsman gaining years of access to the White House
(and network TV cameras) under mysterious circumstances? With real news this
timid, the appointment of Jon Stewart to take over Dan Rather's chair at CBS
News could be just the jolt television journalism needs. As Mr. Olbermann
demonstrated when he borrowed a sharp "Daily Show" tool to puncture the "Jeff
Gannon" case, the only road back to reality may be to fight fake with fake.



Feb 20, 2005

Continent Is Divided, Though Views Soften

By ELAINE SCIOLINO
NAPLES, Italy - In an unadorned classroom at the NATO military base here, 18 European and 3 American officers came together recently for an intense orientation on how to train the Iraqi Army's new officer corps. Many in the room came from "new" European countries - Poland, Romania, Lithuania, Slovakia, Estonia - and were clearly grateful to take part. "You can't be a NATO member and just sit back and do nothing," said Maj. Rudolf Jeeser of Estonia, who, like his fellow officers, volunteered for duty in Iraq. "For me, it's important to pay back NATO for what it has done for my country." Notably absent were officers from America's major and longstanding European allies - France, Germany, Spain, Belgium, Greece - countries that still contend that the American-led war in Iraq is wrong and refuse to send a single soldier there. This is the Europe that President Bush will find when he lands in Brussels on Sunday, Feb. 20: a continent still deeply divided over how much to bend to the will of Washington on issues of war and peace, and how warmly to support the Bush crusade to spread its definition of freedom around the world.
Read the rest here.

The key phrase to all of this is in that last paragraph is "it's (Bush) definition of freedom". The mere image that Bush's freedom seems to be take over other countries, overthrow their government, set up a new "democracy" and then use that country as a crutch to get into the area.
Now don't get me wrong, the middle east is a problematic area. They should NOT be fighting as rampantly as they are over something so stupid. Just goes to show that blind faith is claiming more lives for no specific reason. Go figure that it takes a president like W to infringe the separation clause every time he opens his mouth.

Someone has the Dr. Seuss syndrome:

Dearly beloved, we are gathered today

For this union of men, both of whom are gay.

The denial of marriage, it’s banned in 38 states.

In only one it is legal, and what drama it creates!

A wedding, defined, is a promise of love;

A strong bond of faith, beyond all and above.

So who has the right, to say that it’s wrong;

To say that the groom, and his man, don’t belong?

“It’s impure,” they cry out, “It’s against our God’s way.”

“It’s disgusting, unnatural, and a sin,” they will say.

But you claim that it’s right, a couple will yell and they’ll swear.

And the man strikes his wife with the ring she put there.

On his hand as a promise, to have and to hold.

But it left, on her face, a message in bold.

The love he professed, was less than sincere.

But y’know, it’s all good. ...At least he’s not queer.

That says something for society....
hey let's get our priorities straightened out.

Allison's rhymes rule,
and she's sooo cool!
Feb 19, 2005

My Life, Acoustically Tuned...

!!!!YOUR LIFE SOUNDTRACK!!!!

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Opening creditsJohn Williams "Star Wars Theme"
Waking upMatt Good "Endsong"
Going to workDefault "Sick and Tired"
Taking a shitClosure "Whatever Made You"
Hanging out with friendsAtari's "In This Diary"
Falling in love with someoneStory of the Year "Until the Day I Die"
Sex scene with themMatthew Good Band "The Future Is X-Rated"
Fight scene with that same personJimmy Eat World "Kill"
Breaking up with themUnloco "Crashing"
Getting back together with themToad the Wet Sprocket "All I Want"
Fighting with your bestfriendTrapt "Hollow Man"
Long long night aloneTRUSTcompany "Hover"
Really really depressed sitting in your roomMatt Good "Push"
Masturbating- - - - -
Getting arrested because of a drug bustLostprophets "Start Something"
Running away from a psycho thats chasing youLimblifter "Fiercely Co-Dependent"
Looking out the window watching the rain hitting it- you are derpressedGreenday "Are We, We Are"
Your boyfriend/girlfriend tells you they are gay/lesbianBreaking Benjamin "Medicate"
Feeling sickAdema "Unstable"
Getting drunkBrand New "Soco Amaretto Lim"
Dancing like crazyPapa Roach "Be Free"
Your very frustratedQueensryche "Eyes of the Stranger"
You wanna kill yourselfGood Charlotte "Hold On"
You just wanna be aloneBreking Benjamin "Breakdown"
You wanna tell someone they smell bad, but dont wanna be meanThe Zutons "Pressure Point"
You are angry with yourself because of something youve doneMatthew Good Band "Change of Season"
You get into the showerThe Killers "Midnight Show"
You murder someoneMatthew Good Band "Born To Kill"
You kill yourselfRevis "Spin"
End creditsThree Days Grace "Drown"

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Feb 18, 2005

Conservatives and Rivals Press a Struggling PBS

By JOHN TIERNEY and JACQUES STEINBERG


WASHINGTON, Feb. 16 - It was no accident that PBS found itself turning to Elmo, the popular "Sesame Street" character, to lobby on Capitol Hill this week. There were not many options.

Public television is suffering from an identity crisis, executives inside the Public Broadcasting Service and outsiders say, and it goes far deeper than the announcement by Pat Mitchell that she would step down next year as the beleaguered network's president.

Some public television executives said that running PBS was a thankless job, and that managing a far-flung network composed of independent fiefs around the country was a particularly daunting assignment. They also said they were facing larger issues that would challenge any executive, like increased competition from the cable industry.

Corporate underwriters have been less willing to finance PBS programs, which has left the network increasingly dependent on Washington, where Republicans criticize its programming as elitist and liberal.

The network has also struggled to develop popular new shows.

"The biggest problem we've got is the structure we've got," Alberto Ibarguen, the chairman of PBS and the publisher of The Miami Herald, said in an interview yesterday. "It assumes a lot of government funding, continuing heavy levels of corporate image advertising and no competition. But in the world we're in - the world of increased cable competition, less and less government funding and cutbacks in corporate image advertising - it's a significant problem if that's your business model."

Mr. Ibarguen added: "The risk is the tighter your budgets get, the less you can afford to fail. If you can't afford to fail, you can't afford to take risks."

Among the challenges that Ms. Mitchell has confronted is a trend, lasting nearly a decade, in which corporations have scaled back on the so-called "image advertising" through which they had once financed programs like "Masterpiece Theater." According to PBS's financial statements, revenues drawn from program underwriting - which are paid directly to producers, but catalogued by PBS - reached a five-year peak of $221.9 million in 2001, dropped to $179.4 million in 2003, and rebounded slightly to $184.3 million last year.

PBS hopes to relieve some of the pressure by creating a huge endowment from the proceeds of reselling the spectrum used by its stations when they trade their current broadcast positions for new high-definition stations later in the decade. But that will take persuading the same Congressional and administration officials who have objected to its programming.

Conservatives have complained about Bill Moyers's news program (he has since retired from it) and about a recent children's program featuring a rabbit named Buster who visited a pair of lesbian parents.

After Education Secretary Margaret Spellings threatened to retract financing for that program - a controversy that some called Bustergate - Ms. Mitchell decided not to distribute it.

In an interview on Wednesday, Ms. Mitchell, 62, said she had felt no pressure, either from inside her board or outside of PBS, to step aside.

She also said she had not been personally pressured to change programming by Republicans at the Corporation for Public Broadcasting, which provides federal money to the system. But she said her programmers had worked with their counterparts at the corporation, which is led by White House appointees, in developing several new shows, including a talk show for the conservative commentator Tucker Carlson.

"They certainly want to make sure we are providing a balanced schedule," she said. "We believe we are. We check that with the people we report to - our member stations and the American public."

One high-level executive at PBS headquarters in Washington, who declined to be identified because of the sensitivity of the situation for PBS, said new managers at the Corporation for Public Broadcasting had been concerned about a perceived liberal bias at PBS as well as difficulties in fund-raising.

"The thing to remember with public broadcasting is that everything is steered by the money," the executive said. "What used to be a unique thing is now in this competitive environment and has to do whatever it can to survive, which means bending in a way it used to never bend."

Now that 85 percent of Americans subscribe to cable or satellite television, PBS's children shows, historical dramas and wildlife documentaries face competitors like the History Channel, Discovery, A & E, the National Geographic Channel, BBC America, Nickelodeon, and The Learning Channel. PBS has responded by forging new alliances, like a recent agreement to show HBO films.

Ms. Mitchell, who was interviewed between lobbying meetings, said she would devote the rest of her tenure to raising money. Officials at PBS and its affiliated stations are beginning to lobby for a share of the windfall the federal government may get later this decade when public television stations and other over-the-air broadcasters stop using the airwaves to transmit analog signals, relying instead on digital signals over cable and satellite systems.

Once the broadcasters' part of the spectrum is open, the federal government stands to collect tens of billions of dollars by reselling it to other users like wireless broadband companies. Lobbyists for public television stations are supporting legislation that would put some of the money in a trust fund for public television.

Senator Christopher J. Dodd, a Connecticut Democrat sponsoring the legislation along with Senator Olympia J. Snowe, Republican of Maine, has called for the trust fund to be administered by an independent agency following the sort of procedures used by the National Science Foundation and the National Institutes of Health.

Some critics, like Tim Graham of the Media Research Center, a conservative watchdog group, are reluctant to give PBS any independent endowment.

"They want to create an empire that does not have to answer to the Congress or the people," Mr. Graham said. "Conservatives do not want to give more tax dollars to television stations that attack their ideas."

But there are some sympathetic conservatives, at least among the advisers on the Digital Future Initiative committee created by Ms. Mitchell, which met Wednesday in Washington to contemplate how PBS could put a trust fund to use. Norman Orenstein, a committee member who also sits on the PBS board, said Republicans on the committee believed that a trust fund could pay for socially useful programming.

"We're focusing on education and children and making the case that public broadcasting can do valuable things in a digital age that no one else can or will do," said Mr. Orenstein, a fellow at the American Enterprise Institute, a conservative research group.

But he did not expect the money to come easily.

"You couldn't have a tougher budget environment," Mr. Orenstein said, "and you're going to have vicious scrambling over discretionary domestic spending."

Referring to the recent programming incident, he said, "The timing couldn't have been worse on the Buster thing. This is not a time you want to be in the cross hairs."

PBS is also being criticized by others, like Jeffrey Chester, the executive director of the Center for Digital Democracy and a longtime advocate of more money for public television.

"I'm concerned that PBS is so desperate for funding and support from the Republican-dominated Congress that they're willing to sell their legacy," Mr. Chester said. "They could forgo their historic mandate to do cutting-edge programming and replace it with Bush-administration-friendly educational content."


John Tierney reported from Washington for this article, and Jacques Steinberg from New York.



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Feb 17, 2005

Replay: The Misinterpretation of Love

"To define love is madness. To impress upon it some regulated understanding is to deny its purpose and its promise. Love chooses us. And though we have attempted in vain throughout the ages to unlock its mysteries, we are still helpless in its grasp. Born man or woman, straight or gay, love chooses us and we follow. If you believe that the God you worship personifies love then love in any form cannot be wrong. It is wholly contradictory to espouse the virtues of a universal love and yet disqualify those that do not fit within certain parameters. That is not love, unfortunately, but it’s corruption. What deity would be so callous as to exclude those who do not meet specific “requirements of love”? What person would, in the same breathe, declare that God is love and then deny the love of those that they consider “corrupted”? Love and forgiveness are inseparable. To forgive is divine they say, and yet forgiveness isn’t something many of us care to practice. Battles are being fought in nations throughout the world to ensure that same sex marriage is not legally recognized by people who are obviously so detached from the truths of love and forgiveness as to be in peril of supporting the opposite. What arrogance must one possess to declare themselves the representative of such a powerful and universal thing? What person willingly denies and defames the love of complete strangers because of some personal insecurity or religious bigotry? How dare any of us undermine love? To define love is madness. To defy it? Even more so. If ever there was a time for us to embrace the world’s most powerful weapon and declare war, it’s now. Because to embrace the idea that the law and love are two separate issues is not the sort of inheritance that our children deserve. One has absolutely everything to do with the other, no matter who decries otherwise."
- M. Good

Just thought I'd repost this, I still like it. It proves so many points and deals with both the personal and political levels... so enjoy.
Feb 16, 2005

This is me... If I Was Cool...

Bands // Song Titles

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Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:Matthew Good Band
Are you female or male:The Future Is X-Rated
Describe yourself:Strangest One of All
How do some people feel about you:Native Son
How do you feel about yourself:Every Name Is My Name
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:Jenni's Song
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:Going All The Way
Describe where you want to be:A Boy and His Machine Gun
Describe what you want to be:Indestructible
Describe how you live:Everything Is Automatic
Describe how you love:She's Got A New Disguise
Share a few words of wisdom:Advertising On Police Cars

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Celebrate We Will....

Because life is short but sweet for certain...

Don't misunderestimate me!

I'm going to find a way out of all of this. Nobody is going to see it coming either... I'm going to suprise all of you fools!

Now to think of my new world domination plan...
Feb 14, 2005

Happy Valentine's Day, Now Get In Therapy

Yeah, that's basically my story.

I had a ton of fun walking with Allison and then playing with pookie and drinking hot chocolate.

Then I'm told I'm too damn nice, and that I'm not suppost to care. . . seems like the shoe is on the other foot now.

Then, I'm told I should be removed from school, unless I do a certain therapy regiment.

Appears that being "depressed and suicidal" has its drawbacks. . . sooo. . . this has made for a very up, and very down day. GO FIGURE. There's always something to prevent it from being a perfectly good day, not to mention its rainy and really really windy.
Feb 13, 2005

Might I Suggest...

Feb 11, 2005

Family Affair...

This is making for a fun weekend... html has changed... for obvious reasons.
Feb 10, 2005

Can I Really Celebrate?

Considering that monday is valentines day... most would think that I'd feel kind of happy about it. After all, it is the day of love... SO WHY THE HELL WOULD I BE HAPPY ABOUT IT?!?!? Not to mention that it's a religious holiday, double whammy there. Not to mention that this year's V-day falls on a lowly monday... hurrah... it's like it's just meant to be an anguishing and horrifying day for me. But I'm sure there's a couple ways that it could be a fun day for me, or night (wink wink). I won't get my hopes too far up; only makes for a longer drop. Well... another day that I said I was going to do laundry... oops. So, since it's almost 3am, and I have absolutely nothing to do... I'm going to go to bed, hopefully I'll fall asleep quick and have dreams about... well something pleasant. I'm sick of waking up because of a bad nightmare or just a bizarre dream. It's really becoming quite disturbing. Or I could just not go to sleep again, but there's nobody here to keep me company, I could just keep typing endlessly about absolutely nothing well into the morning. I'm dying for something to eat... not to mention my weights up to 153!!! I'm getting fatter and fatter by the day.
Feb 7, 2005

Desperate Times Call For Desperate Measures

Yes, boys and girls, McGruff commercials are back in circulation and getting plenty of airtime.

This tells me that crime and insecurity is running rampant. If you're seriously interested into what the cartooned crime dog has to say...


Then again, if you don't already know the message, you're a complete idiot. These must be desperate times, after all, McGruff is only used in the direst of circumstances. I'm sure in Rumsfeld and Bush concurred with Cheney's idea to bring the Dog out of retirement. I guess this is Bush's domestic plan...

Can't wait until he thinks of the new foreign plan's mascot. I think it should be someone profound, like GI-Joe or even better, bring Smokey out of the woods and have him tackle the new frontier of desert and guerrilla warfare. Think about it... they brought back McGruff... they must be getting pretty desperate in the White House...

Quote of the day:
If they dropped the bomb
Would you love me then?

Feb 6, 2005

Saturday Night

I'm bored on a saturday night, going out and drinking is not really my thing anymore. I've learned to be comforted by the fact that I'm a total loser. Then, while walking around campus I stopped to revel in my self loathing at my new favorite spot. I sat down and set my water by my feet, then looked out into the courtyard... and this is what I saw:

My waterbottle by my feet, water, the element that brings life...


Then, I looked and saw my giant rubic's cube, which brings curiosity, anguish and pain for those that spend a lifetime trying to fix it into what it once was and what it should be.


Then, I looked up and past the tree... and there it is, taunting me... that ever fucking loving light is on... 6 stories up, taunting me. There was nothing, except for this little piece of information I thought I'd share...


Water, the bringer of life = birth.

Rubic's Cube, curiosity, anguish and pain for those that cannot put it back together again = adulthood.

6th Story Balcony = the place to where life comes to an end.

So that's it, closest to farthest. That's the situational irony of it all... FUCK.

I'll have to try better tomorrow night... screw you Superbowl Sunday. I'm giving it the new name Suicide Sunday instead, yeah, how do you like that one?
Feb 3, 2005

One, Two, Three, (Deep Breath) Here We Go...

Without you, I'm as lonely as an abandoned dog on the side of a highway. I have gift anxiety, even through I don't know when your birthday is. We can spend perfect days shopping and cleaning together. I swear, I'll never make wisecracks when you scrape your tires against the curb while parallel parking. If you consent to live with me, I'll clean the toilet every week. I'll do it with my tongue if you ask. I will strike the words hooters and love rockets from my vocabulary. I'll love you. Even if your name is Mimi and you want me to pronounce it May May. I will only pass gas underneath the covers and under the direst of circumstances. Hell, I'll go on a low cholesterol diet. And I won't buy one of those red sports cars when I hit my mid-life crisis. Your parents can come visit us every week, even if your mom is a witch with a capital B. And your folks don't have to go to a retirement home because they can come live with us. I declare, I'll separate the whites from the colors and learn the mysteries of hot and cold water washes. I'll never huff and puff while waiting for you to put on your makeup. If you're a cat person, I'll never point out the fact that a dog can save your life from drowning, but a cat can't. I will happily go see chick flicks with you, like Pride and Prejudice. I'll make a point to trying new foods like okra gumbo. I won't curl my nose at vegetables whose awful taste is disguised by having cheese on it. I pledge to always say yes when you ask, 'Is my hair looking okay tonight?' I'm gonna bring a whole new meaning to the word cuddle. I'll be thoughtful enough to read your horoscope every day. I'm gonna save every birthday card you send me! And I'll actually write you real letters when we're apart. I'm never gonna expect you to know where I left my car keys, and I'll never leave my socks on the floor. With me, you'll find the cap is always on the toothpaste. I'll start wearing those bikini style underwear if you like. My belly button will always be lint free. I want to full-on kiss your clitoris. It will be the most passionate, intimate experience you've ever had. I declare now, I will give my life for you. And if you fail to come to me, I know some part of me will surely die.
Hmmm.... Allison Tracks...
Feb 2, 2005

What The Hell Ever Happened To Individualism?

Okay, I'm walking back to my room from class and I take a look back down the staircase... You'd think there'd be a shocking number of normally dressed slobs... not really. You'd think that some guys would be afraid of the whole metrosexual dresscode... not so. Then you look at just about every member of the female gender and they have their head glued to a cell phone and half a pound of makeup smeared across their foreheads... not to mention the whole 'hey look at the girl who barely wears anything' look that they all have. But there is the select few that don't dress either metro or in a slut uniform; yes there are the punk and skating class of clothing... though most of them are posers, it's a growing fad. That fact, coupled with the non-stop (some of it crap) playing of brand new punk and alternative punk on the only two music stations on television... I'm becoming sick of seeing these people and knowing that they're imitators. Here's a good example:
My last friday at home before coming back to school Thomas, Mike, Aaron, Jay, and I went to the mall. While I'm smoking outside, in nothing but my WWJDFAKB t-shirt, a girl, wearing nothing but black leather and fishnets, add the ultra-high hooker boots and the palest complection this side of Dracula... bites me. Not a little playful nibble either, a full on clench and tear on the shoulder... ouch. Well, I get to asking her why she dresses in the awkward fashion that she does, her reply, "It's gothic". Well, this was the biggest devolopment since the computer chip. Since when is being gothic mean you dress like a social reject? I'm finding that people don't know what they are or what they're trying to convey. Apparently dressing in nothing but black makes you a Goth. But I seem to recall being something requires you to live a certain lifestyle. Guess posers come from all walks of life:
Metrosexual = gay posers
College girls = slut posers (some may not be posers though...)
Pale, misunderstood teens = goth posers

Yep, that's the day's revelation.
Feb 1, 2005

Take Your Crazy Pills Boys & Girls

Did you ever notice how happy retarded people are? I guess that's one thing I'm not... Happiness comes in small doses for most people. But mentally challenged people seem to have all the fun in the world. I'm really jealous. How come we always think of that kind of mental deformity.... well a deformity. I think that they're a step ahead of the rest of us non-retarded people. And another thing, why is it called REtarded? Doesn't RE mean you've already been (or done) something once? So does that mean that you were tarded first? Then you're retarded. It's such crap to think that the people that are happy and smiling all the time are the ones with the disadvantage. Look at the average human being, miserable, lonely, stressed out, and the ones that are having the most fun with life... are disadvantaged? I'm not seeing the logic in that one...


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