Feb 28, 2006
Good Times Or Bad
| So I'm looking back on the person I was when I was leaving high school compared to who I am now... Big difference two years makes. I was optimistic, I was actually quite taken with politics and the political system. I was still borderline athletic. I was musically impaired and becoming artistically impaired as well. I completed sequences in 5 different areas: Science (plus an extra year), Math (plus an extra year), History (plus an extra semester), English (plus an extra year), Art (plus an extra semester), and fell one semester short of getting a 6th sequence in business/technology. None of the grades for those classes were stellar. My only bright spots were the state tests (none of which were studied for). I pulled off 90's and high 80's on so many of these tests I amazed myself. But the most gratifying one of all came in that senior year. Everyone can relate to having been crushed, emotionally and socially. Fighting back how you really feel to go on with the rest of the day with "normality". It was made a million times tougher due to the fact that she was in the same Physics class as me. I had to go through seeing her everyday, even the day after she left me (and somehow expected me to be okay with everything?). Going through that year was by far the toughest thing I've ever done. Trying not to look at her, trying not to be in love with her for another 8 months was the worst experience anyone could ever have wished on me. It ruined me. I've heard in a few years you won't remember her, you'll have moved on, you'll be better because of it. I remember, I'm stuck, I'm worse. I've become selfish over the past years. I've grown more intolerant and closed minded because I just don't want to hear it; I just don't want to give it another try. I've had the perfect opportunity, twice, to get back up from that fall. Failed Miserably. I'm who I am because of what happened to me. I'm not too thrilled with who I am. Are you? TMNT - Count On Us And if by chance someone got me the first issue of the classic ninja turtle comic book or the first graphic novels I'd seriously fall endlessly in love with you. |
Feb 24, 2006
Who Would I Find Attractive?!?
The Outlaw asks... well here's a friday hottie list of my own. If you don't think Jessica Alba is hot then just stop reading my blog altogether please: 10/10  Emmanuelle Vaugier rowrrr another hottie: 9/10  Aria Giovanni.... if god ever gave the world a gift.. it's her: 10/10  We all know who that hottie is... 10/10  One of my personal favorite, Elisha Cuthbert: 10/10 and then there's this one sketchy girl who I don't know if she could make a real friday hottie list..  ?/10 The Hottest one of them all. . . .  |
Feb 23, 2006
No this is all just a big mis... understand...... ing.
| Is it just me or are people taking things way to seriously these days?? What happened when we could talk about bashing emo kids, blowdrying oprah's face, failed pop careers, invading cuba, selling someone's undergarments on ebay, shitting on allah's chest, strippers, annoying people, and the like?!? Some people these days!! No sense of humor I tell you, no sense of self worth, no sense of not being a total bitch! (ok time grab a brewski and watch the shitstorm from the comfort of your front porch) 2pac with Dr Dre - California Lovin |
Feb 20, 2006
How Did I End Up Here?
| So what's going on besides you heartless, gutless, whipped, pansy ass bastards going and getting plastered across canada?? Probably just as much that's going on here. Nothing. My instincts tell me that things in the world are going even more awry than the last time I looked at any news broadcast... Let us analyze what is happening around the world!! Hugo Chavez is calling a referendum of the Venezualen constitution to let him run for yet another term in 2012. The longer a ruler stays in place the less effective a democracy becomes... not to say that you can't have a successful government with a ruler that's been in power for over a decade... just that it won't be as much of a democracy as we all like to preach. Who are the only group people that have more parades that homosexuals??? Apparently Muslims are. It's been what? A full two weeks since that cartoon was published in a Denmark newspaper. My main question is, who gives a rats ass about what anyone in denmark thinks?? It's about the smallest country in Europe, they have almost no economy, not to mention there are more people living in Toronto than there are in Denmark... come to think about it... what has Denmark ever done for the rest of the world?? Nothing. I mean Amsterdam at least gives us the Red Light District, Germany gave us all the Nazi jokes we could ever want (didn't they kill a bunch of jews??), not to forget grade D meat (hot dogs, frankfurrters). Not to mention that Britain's moth population is in a mass decline!! What will we do without those moths? The Temptations - Stand By Me |
Feb 15, 2006
I Was Just Bullshittin!
| Who am I kidding?? I can't stay away from blogging for more than a couple of days at a time!! So our gracious V.P. Dick Cheney shot a man in the face. Ooops. I can only imagine what happened: out in a texas field Dick: What are we hunting today gentlemen?? Harry: Quail Dick: Just little faggy quail?? You boys sure have pussied out. What happened to the old days where we held the promise to hunt down Democrats?? Harry: Well the only Democrat that would agree was Al Gore and he went on vacation so we're kinda limited with our options. Dick: Al Gore?!? Fine. We can do without him. What about his bimbo wife? Harry: Apparently she went on another one of her anti-2nd amendment campaigns. This is where the Dick had enough Dick: That stupid bitch!! squeezes trigger Harry Whittington is now in ICU for the heart attack he suffered because of the shotgun wound to the chest. The plastic surgury to repair his face was through with yesterday. So from one dick to another, happy valentine's day you bastard. Now who's up for some fishing with the Dick master?  From dad: At least he shot a WASPY motherfucking lawyer! Closure - Afterglow |
Feb 12, 2006
Today's The Day
| I've officially given up on every one and every thing in this shithole town. It's like musically.. I'm tortured. The Juliana Theory finally called it quits after 9 years of great changing music. Apparently record labels have given the band so many run-arounds that it's no longer standeable for them to continue. That, I can live with. I've finally given in and sold my soul. To make me feel even crummier... FUEL (the best band to ever play rock music) has not only lost it's drummer. but they've now parted ways with their frontman Brett Scallions as well. WHY I ASK YOU WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ALL THE GOOD BANDS?!?? So now I'm guaranteed that there's no more Juliana Theory... FUEL will never be the same again and I'm greatly shaken of how you're supposed to remain a fan when the band is totally and utterly crushed and then re-made. Lead guitar and bass, that's all that's left of them. That's basically me and my cousin sitting in the living room playing. So there you have it. Or so you thought! Not only does that piss me off. But I'd like to thank every douche inside the fucking county for being a total fucking asshole and blowing me off tonight. Not only did you NOT tell me you weren't going to go to my dad's show until you left to do whatever it is you assholes do in this filth ridden ass trench called central new york, but you've also guaranteed that I'm never coming back to this place. HAVE A NICE LIFE ASSHOLES NOT ONLY HAVE I BEEN FUCKED THREE WAYS FROM SUNDAY FROM PEOPLE I BARELY KNOW. NOW THE PEOPLE THAT I DO KNOW HAVE BAILED ON ME TOO. I plan on being absent from this blog or any other for the next few weeks. I can't take so much bullshit in one sitting. Sorry I didn't make it to the show, I don't know how much more stress I can take. Closure - I Don't Mind (the rain) |
Feb 9, 2006
You're Leaving
| I've been thinking over the last few days about a few different things. My life is going to go through another change. One way, or another. I hate the looming feeling of change. Not change itself, not knowing where that change is going to take me. What people am I going to be severed from this time? Who do I have to forget now? Who should I sever ties with? Who's worth keeping around? Have you ever wondered why you were even friends with someone in the first place?? How you met under just the right circumstance and how much bullshit you put up with from other people around you? Why can't there just be a reset button?!?!!? Fuck I'm about to turn into a total wuss. I'm going to get shitfaced and fuck some thing/one up before I have to castrate myself. Decision time. NIN - Hurt |
Feb 7, 2006
It Isn't Easy
| I hate this place. I dont think I've mentioned it lately. So I guess we're going to have a post dedicated to the putrid habitat known as Central New York. It snowed last night. Not a little, like a good foot, maybe more. I hate it when mother nature has PMS. Make up your fucking mind 60 and cloudy or 20 and snowing. It's not that tough. Have I ever mentioned my dieing love for The Ramones and their ability to keep coming up with great music and never selling out? How aboout the fact that they never used an guitar or bass or drum solo in their illustrious career? Ok well there you have that. School is the biggest waste of time right now. We're learning about supply and demand curves... I could tell you all you'd ever need to know about them in about 15 minutes, if that. But we get to spend a whole week and a half talking about... nothing and still people don't fucking get it. Theater is the only class that makes my day sane. Which is pretty fucking sad. Biology is exactly like it was in high school minus the HUSS-ing randomly throughout classes. Spanish is once a week so naturally I don't remember a damn thing about what I should be studying for tomorrow. So there you go. Life is boring as hell right now. Exciting for a few hours late night but that doesn't really count now does it?? OPM - Heaven Is A Halfpipe |
Feb 5, 2006
Would You Let Me?
| You know this is the first time I haven't been able to come up with a topic to ramble about [whether serious or complete bullshit] in a very long time. Maybe it's just because I'm totally distracted right now... I just can't stop thinking and I just can't seem to believe it. Maybe lightning does strike twice? But there is one little detail I'd like to share with everyone!!  FIRST PLACE that is all. The Ramones - Do You Wanna Dance? |
Feb 2, 2006
You miss the feeling?
It's the number one realization I've come to. You want someone so bad, only to find out they want you back. It's the best feeling in the world. When you find the first person that wants you it's a moment where you're experiencing everything for the first time. And the first time is always the most memorable. You'll always compare everything else to that first time. Maybe that's a good thing, maybe it's not. But know that you'll never love the same again because you've been let down once. You'll be more prepared to be let down again, you'll be more tentative with what you show/tell/do with people. That is why first love is always doomed to failure. That is why first love is always the longest to get over. That's why picking yourself back up afterwards, takes just one thing to keep in mind... tomorrow.. there' could be someone new. I'm going to take my own advice that I left for Danielle and tear down a few things tomorrow. I hope you're okay Smelly. You'll find your a hot italiano boy in Vancouver one day soon!! Jimmy Eat World - Night Drive |
Feb 1, 2006
How Am I Alive Today?
| So my dear cousin Matthew Jones and myself were talking about the olden days... here's the best excerpt (because me making a good blog post isn't going to happen soon): Matt: how about the time when you almost got ur ass kicked by a bunch of black kids at a Utica Blue Sox game Me: ... Me: i'm already cleared of that. you said it yourself. they were black Matt: yea well that was a sad moment in history Me: lmao Matt: i was shitting my pants Me: ahhaahahaha Me: the only reason i was partially scared was b/c i know it wasnt gonna be a fair fight Matt: if you weren't my cousin then i woulda ran and then they still woulda caught up with me and beat my ass Me: lmao Me: dude it was me and you... and like ten of them. there's no way that's a fair fight Matt: and they surrounded us Me: haha dude. how are we alive again? Matt: i have no clue Yes, so the moral to the story. Guns don't kill people. Dangerous minorities do. The Transplants - Diamonds and Guns |