Jul 30, 2007
Countdown
| Hey, hey, only 13 more days of my ramblings being public domain! |
Jul 29, 2007
Insatiable
| So is it really so bad? Am I really that bad in taste? I'm sorry but for the past two years I've been chanting that if I- by any chance- reproduce, the kid's name is going to be Anzio. It's an Italian city and I figured since the old tradition was changing your last name to the town you were born in Italy when you arrived in America has gotten a little stale... I'd change it up a little bit. C'mon is Anzio Lazzaro such a bad name?? Who's with me? |
Jul 26, 2007
Scared
| I don't get how someone can just fake it. They say, "fake it 'til you make it." but that's only in the business sense. but the one thing that can never be faked, is who you are. Something that people just don't seem to get these days. You are who you are, whether by nature and/or nurture I don't care. You are just that. A product of your environment. You can fake to some your emotions and lie to them. You can with-hold from those around you what your true feelings about a person, place, thing (nouns and verbs go here). But you can't fake what you really think and what you really want to yourself. I look at it and I see what I really want. I see what I should want, I see what I need. I see everything that I hold near and dear, and then everything that I should. I think I've done my best to make sure they're one in the same. I'm doing what's best for me in the short and long term by making these choices for and by myself. But some people can't do it. They'll make the choices everyone else wants them to make, they'll do it to fit in, or to feel wanted. It's bullshit how easily we sell ourselves off just to be a part of the crowd without thinking of the individual we're going to be someday because of it. Maybe I'm just spewing shit as usual. But I look at my life, and I see where I went when I made my own decisions and where I went when people made decisions for me and when I let their influence on my choices be the deciding factor... and I say no more. I've made a choice in my head, and even she can't comprehend it. But I'll never change my mind, no matter who has disagreed with what I'm about to do. I'm back Fredonia State University. |
Jul 24, 2007
She's Not Italian, But I'm Still Trying...
 Ewww onions How cute! The workstation There is nothing more perfect Saucey |
Jul 21, 2007
Jesus Fuck
| I just waited a half hour in line for a book. Not just any book, a Harry Potter book. Lord help me and keep me sane from this woman. Pictures Sunday, tomorrow's Krockathon 12!!! |
Jul 18, 2007
These Are Great
Jul 15, 2007
How Ciavarro and Grimshaw Met:
| Chad had been in the liquor business for 25 years. Finally, sick of the stress, he quits his job and buys 50 acres of land in Alaska, as far from humanity as possible. He sees the postman once a week and gets groceries once a month. Otherwise it's total peace and quiet. After six months or so of almost total isolation, someone knocks on his door. He opens it, and a huge, bearded man is standing there. "Name's Grimshaw, your neighbor from forty miles up the road. Having a Christmas party Friday night... Thought you might like to come. About 5:00?" "Great", says Chad, "after six months out here I'm ready to meet some local folks. Thank you." As Grimshaw is leaving, he stops. "Gotta warn you ... der are some drinkin"... "Not a problem" says Chad. "After 25 years in the business, I can drink with the best of 'em." Again, the big man starts to leave and stops. "More 'n' likely gonna be some fightin' too"... "Well, I get along with people, I'll be all right. I'll be there, Thanks again." "More'n likely be some wild sex, too"... "Now that's really not a problem," says Chad, warming to the idea. "I've been all alone for six months! I'll definitely be there. By the way, what should I wear?" "Don't much matter ... Just gonna be the two of us..." |
Jul 13, 2007
Her Worst Nightmare
| Apparently it's coming true. I was sent a form saying that in order for me to be re-admissed to Fredonia I need a mental evaluation. Sweet. So I was right. They ignored me for almost two years because I was a mental case. They thought I was too unstable to accomplish anything. Now that I have, the tune has changed. Sweet. Now to get back into my school with a better major and to make sure I don't fuck it up again. I don't think I will. I don't think I could. All I know is that I'm going to be right where I've always wanted. Not to mention there's a hockey championship to defend... Augustana - Hotel Roosevelt |
Jul 11, 2007
Rally
| I don't know why, but even when things should be great, there are new problems that come up. Problems that you'd never thought you'd face. Problems that only come with success, no matter how mild that success is. So to those who say that success is bliss, you're wrong. Success takes sacrifice and time. If we sacrifice too much, in 20 years you'll look back at how selfish and driven you were for personal success. But you won't be happy. You'll have sacrificed your friends and family, you'll have sacrificed your chance at a family of your own. But if you refuse to sacrifice, and you compromise; your life will be filled with mild success and mild unhappiness that you never fully applied yourself. But you'd have a chance at a mediocre family and it always seems like we measure life through our sacrifices. The decisions made that take our lives to unfamiliar places. At first we think these unfamiliar places and situations are wondrous and "that change that you've always been looking for". Nothing's ever worth the sacrifice for personal success. Success is measured by your social status. Some try to achieve that through a formal marriage, being a high ranking corporate bitch and a Mercedes. Others try to achieve it through love, friendship, and measuring their lives by those whom they've helped achieve more then themselves. I wish I knew which side of the fence I want to walk on. Rush - Limelight |
Jul 9, 2007
Earl the Duck
| It rained the whole day. Some way to celebrate Independence Day. Amusement and fun in the rain, I think the puddles were the most entertaining aspect of the whole park. So during this whole downpour we decided to get some lunch. There's a neat little pavilion conveniently located next to a grill and a Subway inside the park. Who knew that there while we were eating a duck would want to be fed? The damned thing practically begged everyone there for some food. Me, being the generous soft hearted fellow that I am, gave in. The thing practically got to eat the last half of my sub; and you think he'd come close enough so I could chase him down and take him home as an extra birthday present for Erin? Of course not. But there's instant comedic value in chasing a duck around an amusement park in the rain... |
Jul 5, 2007
So It Rained
| For the first time all summer it rained for a whole day straight. Yaaay But not so cool when the entire day is planned for and spent outside. Rested up on four hours of sleep, up at 8am. Out of the house at 9:20 Picked up Jay at 9:30 Met up with Erin at a redneck quickstop 250 miles away at 12:00 Spent the rest of the day at Darien Lake, which is no longer a Six Flags, thank god, we don't want anyone getting their legs cut off on amusement rides. (More stories on the day to follow: Earl the duck, Steakman, girly screaming and rollercoasters) But the whole trip was validated by the fact that the greatest thing to come out of Canada since ice hockey was performing. RUSH. I grew up listening to them, I always had a softspot for listening to their music, but over the past year I've become a full fledged fanatic. Unfortunately Erin wasn't so up on the band like I was. But during Pert's 10 minute drum solo even she couldn't deny how amazingly awesome it was. Oh, and spending $120 on three shirts, totally worth it. Rush - Subdivisions |
Jul 2, 2007
Here I Am
| I'm 21 I already have a few gray hairs sprouting on my head I already have a partially receded hairline I have an Associates Degree in Liberal Arts I have a computer that I built by myself that I am very proud of I have a ticket to go see Rush on July 4th at Darien Lake I have a ticket to go see Chris Cornell, Social Distortion and the Deftones at Krockathon 12 in a few weeks I have a shitty car I have a shitty job I have a shitty bank account I have met some pretty cool people because of this website I have gotten myself into big trouble because of this website I have become more and more intolerant of stupidity over the last couple of years I have lost my passion for politics I want a different life than this place I want a person that would do the same things for me that I would do for them I want to go away to school again but not at the price it's going to cost me this time. Grand Theft Audio - Grey, Black, & White |