Sep 25, 2008
Dear North Dakota,
| I can't stand working in big groups. Namely because of people. People who're obviously not interested or just plain suck at what they're supposed to do. Mostly the first part. Like scheduling a meeting time and being the only one there for a half hour. Or being endlessly harassed for test results (or if they can take it because they decided not to show up) when I'm obviously not an authority figure in that aspect of the class. I think I've had to answer the phone with "who is this" more times in the past 2 days than I have in the past year. My sleep schedule is so funky I couldn't draw it up or execute it on my own. I know it seems like forever since we talked or joked around, because it really has been. I hope you've found something fun to do in your town, besides the endless slew of projects that I'm too drained to get done on time, I've been spending most of my time laying in bed, hoping that maybe I'll promptly fall asleep and it'll be May and I can get the hell out of here. Though my last two test results indicate it may take me longer than that. Or maybe I should just cut the shit and come to terms that, right now, I don't have the mental capacity to be in school. But even if I do that, I have nowhere to go to help. I have nothing but bad memory after bad memory chasing me down. Not to mention a huge distraction that I just can never seem to get a clean reading on. I don't know what I want to do, where I want to call home, or who I want to become after I finish school. I feel like my education stopped as soon as my head wrapped around you all those years ago. I used to be an A+ student until I met you. Always, Mike |
posted by Mike at 4:44 PM
