Oct 11, 2008
To Live Is An Adventure
| To die is easy We all know it's coming. Not when or where, we even have worries of how. I've had worries of how. But it's moments that when you know you're alive that make those thoughts dissipate. When you believe. When you trust. When you know. When is the most important aspect of most peoples' lives. It shouldn't be, but it is. People remember where they were when they first kissed, attended their first funeral, got laid, or whatever nostalgic moment you prefer. But everyone can measure their life in When and Who and Where. To measure life in Why, now that is the challenge. To measure life by that is to openly endorse your own insanity. Many have asked Why, only to be answered with silence, with contradiction, with madness. There are some things in this world that do not require Why, religion seems to be one of them. Blind belief, the one thing I've fought so hard to no succumb to, I did. I compromised. I did so in believing without asking, I rectified that problem as swiftly as I could. So I asked, I asked Erin why she was with me, why she wanted to be with me and I re-found myself. Who I really am, in the thought that people are still replaceable, but only to an extent. People will inherently want attention, we are most attracted to those that give it, no matter who they are. Who is derived from Why. Who you are is to understand Why you do the things you do. I know who I am. I know who you are. Why you feel the way you do and why you hurt, why you smile and why you cry. It's why every time I try to think things through, to be just what you wanted me to be, it goes awry. To figure it out took me until this morning. I'm hoping it marks the end of the sleepless nights. I don't believe it blindly. I know Why I am so stuck on you and why you can't quit me. It's because we know Why. I can only profess my side of things. I can only tell you that I've never had what I do with anyone. You'd think with knowing I'd get bored. But you're too much fun to be bored of. You're too persistent to I once lived my life to the content that if I died tomorrow, what I wanted would be known and done. Too bad that I'll not have that feeling for a while. But I do know that my belief in you is completely founded on who you are and not some fairytale of what I hope or what I dream. I Know. It's a feeling I plan to live with for a very long time. |
posted by Mike at 7:50 AM
